ok so...

so i know i keep telling myself that im gonna update this thing more often...and obviously i dont. well i bought myself a new cell phone, and my friends are badgering me asking me y i did it. well cuz i wanted to. its a kyocera lingo and it has a full qwerty keyborad which is so cool cuz Shawn and i can text each other for free now (he and i both have cricket service.) i bought a bikini for the summer. yes im definitely coming out of my shell this year. must be cuz im turning 20. idk and idc. so if u wanna call me its 285-1443. leave a message if im not there blah blah blah the usual. ttyl and luv to all!

overwhelmed

I am so exhausted from going to school in the morning then going to work til 10:00 at night and then having to get up at 6 the next day. i'm so emotionally exhausted i cry.

i believe...

I believe...
...people are illusions
...cats are better than dogs
...there is such a thing as forever
...love at first sight exists
...time does not move in itself; time does not move, we move through time
...there is an afterlife after this one
...the apocalypse will come but long after we're gone
...everything happens for a reason

amazing song

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for u my one and only

snuggle bunny

2 more...

I now have all 6 seasons of Smallville! Shawn surprised me again by giving me the 5th and 6th season so now I have whole set!!! Yay!! And Spring Break is next week and I'm so excited!!

Spring

I think Spring is finally here! I feel different for some reason. Maybe it's just me or something else but lately I've been looking different...more like a girly girl, and quite frankly I don't really like it but I can't help myself! I actually kinda like looking nice every once in a while! What's happening to me lol?

Smallville

Yesterday Shawn surprised me by giving me the first 4 seasons of my favorite tv show, Smallville!! I loved watching that show when I had cable and now I get to watch them whenever I want and see all the episodes that I missed!!!! I took Alex out Saturday for a movie(Penelope) and dinner at Applebees. Last night Shawn and I went to see "The Eye" at the dollar theater. Really good movie but very jumpy at some parts too. I hope Alex feels better soon!

baila chiqui chiqui

i love this song for some reason

sick again

I am sick with bronchitis again...son of a banshee!! lol i love meeself!

unicorn turd kind of day

well in my last blog i was praising old man winter for leaving.....now he's out to get me. oh dear!!! i'm so sick and tired of this dang snow! when will the sunshine come and stay for a long visit??

finally

I'm so glad we finally have good weather! I get to go outside without a coat and a scarf. Now I want it to hurry up so then I can wear shorts and skirts and flipflops! Hurry up weather!!!

no snow

Today is the first day of Spring!! Now maybe hopefully, we will be free from the Cruel Old Man Winter....hopefully...my fingers are crossed. I wanna wear skirts and shorts and flipflops and my swimsuit and a whole lotta stuff. So Alex my dear I hope you will stop pestering me cuz I updated my blog so there! Note to Shawn: I love you dearly!

ahhhhh!

Alexand I literally gave ourselves a headache trying to figure what this song was and who sang it. well here it is!!

Hospital Visit

I went to the hospital this morning. I had swabs stuck down my throat and UP MY NOSE(that one hurt like hell), x-rays, urine sample, vitals checked(heart rate, blood pressure), and some sudafed prescription. It turns out I have acute bronchitis, lungs and airways are inflamed. I had to wear one of those hospital gowns(I felt like a retard) and I was so tired. Every time I kept trying to sleep I awoke to the nurse poking me and prodding me to wake up. But I'm glad everything worked out. I have a prescription and so far it's helping. I hope I'll feel better soon.

cute

gummy bear (FULL LENGTH)

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here's to love

So here it is...Valentine's Day. Roses, Carnations, Candy, Jewelry, Kisses, Hugs, Boyfriends, Girlfriends; it's enough to make a single person throw up!!! Every single person in America right now is probably making their stomachs sick with too much chocolate; wishing THEY had someone to share today with. I remember when I was single. Truthfully??? I actually enjoed not being tied down by a guy. I liked my freedom of being able to do what ever I wanted...hang out with all my guy friends(I don't do that much any more), and stay out with my girls without worrying if a phone call is going to come through wondering where I am, and it's not my parents. I wasn't really sad or lonely on Valentine's Day or any day for that matter; I was quite happy as a clam.

I believe that every girl wants to share this day with someone. Girls want to be told that they are beautiful and exeptionally kind and caring, but some of us don't get that. Is being single all that's craked up to be? Or does it have some positive aspects to it?

When I did get lonely during my single years, I kept reminding myself of one thing...that Jesus loves me. He is the One valentine who always tells me I'm beautiful by blowing soft breezes through my hair, kissing my face with the bright sunshine, greeting my bare feet with soft lush grasses, tickling my toes with sand at the beach; Jesus tells me I'm beautiful in more creative ways that guys would never even think of. And He never abandons me when things get rough. He never "dumps" me when I'm having a hard time. In fact He stays with me right until the very bitter end.

I understand how you single girls and women feel, I was one of you for the longest eighteen years of my life. As long as you remember that Jesus loves no matter what happens to you or what you've done, nothing can go wrong. He will never get mad at you because you "cheated" on Him with another dude. Jesus loves you and all the rest of us the same. And while most guys show their love for a girl by kisses and hugs and lots of nice expensive things, Jesus showed us how much He loves us by dying for us. He is my definition of Love: a cross and three nails. That is True Love.

So Happy Valentine's Day and remember that it doesn't matter if you're single on this day or any other day, Jesus loves you very much. And He will always take of you.

potter puppets...so friggin adorable

wizard swears 101

no news

i havent written in 6 days. im so tired and so stressed i feel like im wilting away. shawn and i are good. we're trying to figure out what to do our second valentine's day. its amazing to me how we've been together for almost 2 years! wow time flies. i know i say that a lot but it seems to go by a lot faster when you're with someone. i love you shawn!

RIP Heath Ledger Tuesday, January 22, 2008 3:45p.m.

Life can slip away

Sometimes its efforless

Last words prior

The family holds dear

Never leave angry

It might be your last

Breath of Life, the Love to Live,

Never let them go

They just might be

Precious more than anything

Always forgive, always forget

Live for the Now

Instead of yesterday

Focus on you

Live each day

As if it were your last

And remember this

Live, Love, Peace, Joy

But more importantly Love

baby it's you. love u forever

Shawn Michael Murray Lantz. I love the way those four words dance on my lips. Every
time I say those words I'm reminded of the day that I met him. Tuesday September 4,
2006 was the first day of college life. I remember walking into the math classroom
and there they were: the most beautiful pair of baby blues I had ever seen in my
life, were staring right back at me. I was so engulfed in those eyes that I
completely forgot that the professor was speaking to me. I was sort of listening to
her and then again I wasn't. All I was concentrating on were those baby blues. And I
never forgot them all through the day too. My mom kept asking me numerous times "Well
what does he look like?", and all I could say was "I have no idea except that he has
blue eyes". Well I have to say this went on for about a week until the day came when
I FINALLY got up the nerve to talk to him for the first time. Normal people usually
say something along the lines of "hi" or "how are you" right??? Haha!! My first words
were...well let me back up here. All through the entire week I was trying really hard to get up my guts to say something to this kid who at the moment, was sitting in front of me. Every day leading up to this moment I had made up these little dialogs about how our conversation would go. Now according to him I "busted my way through" and caught up with him. Ok now where was I??? Oh yes. My first words were "how do you
spell your name?". Just like that! No "hi" or "whats up"...but no!!! I had to ask how
he spelled his name!!! I was so horrified!! But at least when he answered he didn't
seem taken aback by what I said. That was a good sign. Once I decided to walk to him
to one of his classes and then I surprised him by greeting him when he was through
for the day and I walked him to Bldg1. He and I were sitting on the bench outside and
when his mom pulled I gave him a hug because "that's what homeschoolers do". Well his
mom came running up to me and asked me if i was Shawn's girlfriend. I said no and
then she left with Shawn. And every day after that he started to walk me to my
english class that I had on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Then on Friday October 6, 2006 I
asked him to go see a movie with me, Monster House, at Movies10. Now every one I
talked to said that I asked him out on a date. Wait!!! I did what?? I only intended
to ask him just as two friends hanging out!!! I didn't want to say anything to him
about this fearing that he would back out at the last possible second, so I managed
to keep my mouth shut. Thursday November 16, 2006 was the day of my dad's birthday.
As usual I went to school and sat in my math listening to our professor and as usual
he walked me to english. I noticed that he was unusually quiet. He suddenly said to
me "I'm debating to ask you something" and then he went real quiet for a what seemed
like the longest 3 minutes of my life. "ok", he said, "I'll ask you". He took a deep
breath and out came these 6 words that I had been waiting patiently to hear for 18
years: "Will you go out with me?". Boy was I surprised!!! It was the sweetest moment
of my life and I will never forget the day he asked me out. The whole way home on the
bus I couldn't help but smile from ear to ear. I was so happy and I still am. Shawn,
you have made me so happy and I'm so blessed to have you with me and share my life
with you. I love you baby so much!! You are my world and I would die for you. I hope
you and I have many memories to share together. I love you!!!

and the winner for the moron awards goes to.....

Kentucky: Two men tried to pull the front off a cash machine by running a chain from the machine to the bumper of their pickup truck. Instead of pulling the front panel off the machine, though, they pulled the bumper off their truck. Scared, they left the scene and drove home. With the chain still attached to the machine. With their bumper still attached to the chain. With their vehicle's license plate still attached to the bumper.

Louisiana: A man walked into a Circle-K, put a $20 bill on the counter and asked for change. When the clerk opened the cash drawer, the man pulled a gun and asked for all the cash in the register, which the clerk promptly provided. The man took the cash from the clerk and fled, leaving the $20 bill on the counter. The total amount of cash he got from the drawer? Fifteen dollars. [If someone points a gun at you and gives you money, was a crime committed?]

Arkansas: Seems this guy wanted some beer pretty badly. He decided that he'd just throw a cinder block through a liquor store window, grab some booze, and run. So he lifted the cinder block and heaved it over his head at the window. The cinder block bounced back and hit the would-be thief on the head, knocking him unconscious. Seems the liquor store window was made of Plexi-Glass. The whole event was caught on videotape.

Ann Arbor:The Ann Arbor News crime column reported that a man walked into a Burger King in Ypsilanti, Michigan at 12:50am, flashed a gun and demanded cash. The clerk turned him down because he said he couldn't open the cash register without a food order. When the man ordered onion rings, the clerk said they weren't available for breakfast. The man, frustrated, walked away.

life, love, and the pursuit of happiness

1) Love. It's a powerful word. One that has many meanings to it. For instance, it could mean something like "I love this sweater". Or it could mean "I love my orange striped unmentionables". But no meaning in this world could be as uplifting as the one that happened so many ions ago...the day He was born. My meaning of love is symbolized by a cross and 3 nails.

2) Life. Live and let live. Live for today and worry about tomorrow when tomorrow comes, which will then be today and turn into yesterday. Don't dwell on the past.

3) Happiness. What does it mean to be happy? I mean really and truly happy? Happiness doesn't rely on money. And it definitely doesn't sell for money. Money will never buy happiness, no matter how you slice it.


And there you have my words of wisdom for the day.

fave song

DJ:
Yeah! In The Place To Be!
Chipmunks On The M I C!
Witch Doctor!
Everybody Get In To It!
(get in to it)
Come On People Let's Get To It!
(let's get to it)
Come On Sexy, Come On Roll!
Everybody Hit The Floor!
Come On Sexy, Come On Roll!
Here's The Chipmunks Here We Go!

Chipmunks:
I Told The Witch Doctor I Was In Love With You!
I Told The Witch Doctor You Didn't Love Me Too!
And Then The Witch Doctor He Told Me What To Do!
He Said That:

Ooh to the eeh the ooh the ahah to the ting to the tang the wallawalla bingbang
Ooh to the eeh the ooh the ahah ting tang wallawalla bingbang
Ooh to the eeh the ooh the ahah to the ting to the tang the wallawalla bingbang
Ooh to the eeh the ooh the ahah ting tang wallawalla bingbang

YO DJ PUMP THIS PARTY!

DJ:
Everybody Get In To It! (go! go! go!)
(get in to it)
Come On People Let's Get To It! (go! go! go!)
(let's get to it)
Come On Sexy, Come On Roll!
Everybody Hit The Floor!
Come On Sexy, Come On Roll!
Here's The Chipmunks Here We Go!
ALVIN! SIMON! THEADORE!

Chipmunks:
I Told The Witch Doctor You Didn't Love Me True
I Told The Witch Doctor You Didn't Love Me Nice
And Then The Witch Doctor He Gave Me This Advice
He Said To Me, Whoa! Ya He Said To Me!

Ooh to the eeh the ooh the ahah to the ting to the tang the wallawalla bingbang
Ooh to the eeh the ooh the ahah ting tang wallawalla bingbang
Ooh to the eeh the ooh the ahah to the ting to the tang the wallawalla bingbang
Ooh to the eeh the ooh the ahah ting tang wallawalla bingbang

Girl:
Ya You've Been Keeping Love From Me,
And That's Not Very Smart! (not very smart)
So I Went Out And Found Myself Someone
Who'd Tell Me How To Win Your Heart!
(Whoa! Yeah!)

My Friend The Witch Doctor He Told Me What To Say
My Friend The Witch Doctor He Told Me What To Do
I Know That You'll Be Mine When I Say This To You Whoa! Oh Baby Baby!

DJ:
Everybody Get In To It! (go! go! go!)
(get in to it)
Come On People Let's Get To It! (go! go! go!)
(let's get to it)
Come On Sexy, Come On Roll!
Everybody Hit The Floor!
Come On Sexy, Come On Roll!
Here's The Chipmunks Here We Go!

Chipmunks:
Ooh to the eeh the ooh the ahah to the ting to the tang the wallawalla bingbang
Ooh to the eeh the ooh the ahah ting tang wallawalla bingbang
Ooh to the eeh the ooh the ahah to the ting to the tang the walla walla bingbang
Ooh to the eeh the ooh the ahah ting tang wallawalla bingbang

Ooh to the eeh the ooh the ahah to the ting to the tang the wallawalla bingbang
Ooh to the eeh the ooh the ahah ting tang wallawalla bingbang
Ooh to the eeh the ooh the ahah to the ting to the tang the walla walla bingbang
Ooh to the eeh the ooh the ahah ting tang wallawalla bingbang

funny2

funny

made me cry so bad

Mom: Wake up honey. Chris is downstairs waiting for you.

Sarah: Oh my gosh. I woke up too late! I still need a shower and everything!


Right when she said that Chris walked into her room smiling from ear to ear.


Chris: No baby. You're beautiful just like that- now come on, I'm starving.

Sarah: Okay.


Sarah got out of bed, put on some clothes, took his hand, and walked out the door to his car and got in.


Sarah: Where are we going? Remember that I have to be home by 1. I have cheerleading practice and you have football.

Chris: I know..


Then Sarah noticed that Chris was really pale-looking.


Sarah: Chris are you feeling okay? You look like you're sick..

Chris: Yeah; it's just my allergies.

Sarah: Are you sure? Did you go to the doctor yet?

Chris: Yeah.. I went yesterday. They just said to take some allergy pills and that I'll be okay.


Sarah turned to look away from Chris.
She knew there was something wrong.
She has allergies and she doesn't look like that.
Then he reached out and held her hand.


Sarah: Chris your hands are so cold. I dont think you're okay tell me what's really wrong.. do we need to go back to the house?

Chris: I promise you baby; everything is okay.. they told me to go back tomorrow but I'm not going because there's nothing wrong with me.

Sarah: Chris you need to go! If they told you to then there is something wrong!


Chris let go of her hand and turned back to the road and didn't talk to her the rest of the way.
Sarah just looked at him.
They finally pullled up to the resturaunt and ate breakfast.


Chris: Did you bring your cheerleading stuff or do we have to go back to your house to get it?

Sarah: I have it.. do you really think you should go to football practice like that ?

Chris: Yes Sarah. I'm fine.

Sarah: If you say so..

Chris: Sarah, baby, would I lie to you?

Sarah: No...


They got back in the car and went to the field.
They got out and started practice.
Sarah was practicing a new cheer, but then out of no where she heard a boy yell,



"HE'S NOT MOVING SOMEONE CALL 911! HELP COACH!"


Right when she heard that she turned around and saw Chris on the ground just laying there, not moving.
She ran to him but her dad pushed her back.


Dad: No honey. You shouldn't be right here.


Sarah started to cry.


Sarah: Daddy. What happened? Is he okay?

Dad: Honey. Please just go back with your coach.


Sarah walked back and sat on the bench with her head in her hands while an ambulance came and took him away.
She got in the car with her dad and they went to the hospital.
When they got there his mom was already there and talking to the doctor.
They walked over and listened...


Doctor: You may want to sit down for this.

Chris's Mom: Is he okay?

Doctor: Ma'am.. your son has lukiemia. We can put him on treatments, but he might not make it because the cancer has already spread too much.



Sarah was shocked and began to cry on her dads shoulder.


Chris's Mom: Treatments?

Doctor: Well the treatments would cause hair loss... but it will help slow the cancer down.

Chris's Mom: But he's certain to die?

Doctor: Yes.. but we have had this surgery to clear out the clogs.. but it's possible that he will not make it.

Chris's Mom: I will have to talk to him about this. Can we see him now?

Doctor: Yes. One at a time though.



Chris's mom looked over at Sarah and hugged her tight she knew that Sarah loved him with all her heart.



Chris's Mom: You go first sweetheart.

Sarah: Are you sure?

Chris's Mom: Yes honey.



Sarah walked slowly to his room and turned the knob.
She just stood there, looking at him lying there weak.
He was so pale and he had tubes surrounding him.
It was painful for her to look at him.
Chris looked at her and weakly smiled at her.
She went over and kneeled down beside him.



Chris: Did they already tell you?

Sarah: Yes...

Chris: I'm sorry Sarah. I didn't want you to find out like this.

Sarah: It's okay; I understand Chris.

Chris: Baby I love you so much.

Chris reached up and slowly ran his fingers through her hair.

Sarah: I love you too Chris. With all my heart.. and I will be here for you 'till the end.

Chris: Im going to be okay Sarah.


The nurse walked in with Chris's mom.


Nurse: Its her turn now.


Chris looked at Sarah.


Chris: Bye baby.

Sarah: Bye.



Sarah kneeled down and softly kissed his cold lips.

Months went by and Chris lost his hair, but they were still deeply in love and Sarah was by him everyday.
Chris was getting worse to where he couldn't even play football, and the championship game was coming up.

Chris was sitting on Sarah's porch with her and her dad.



Chris: Coach.. I wanna play tomorrow.

Dad: Chris I know you do.. but I can't let you do that.. you'll get hurt.



Chris: No, coach. Please. This might be the last time on the field for me. I want to be able to play one more time.



Dad looked at Chris and then at Sarah.
Sarah nodded her head.



Dad: You're a strong boy, Chris, and very brave. I think we can do this.

Chris: Thank you so much coach.

Sarahs dad nodded his head.


Dad: So what are you two doing tonight?

Chris: I wanna show Sarah something if that's okay.

Dad: Of course; you two be careful.



Chris took Sarah's hand and lead her to his car.
It was completely dark outside when they pulled up to the football field.


Sarah: What are we doing here?

Chris: Follow me.


Chris grabbed a blanket and laid it down onto the field.
They both laid there looking at the stars.



Sarah: This is so beautiful.

Chris: I do this often. I wanted to show you the place I love.

Sarah: Do you remember the flowers you gave me on our very first date?

Chris: Sure I do; I gave you lillies; your favorite.

Sarah: Yeah... I'll never forget that day.

Chris: I want you to always remember something Sarah.

Sarah: What is it?

Chris: I will always be with you.. and I will always love you.. you're my one and only..



Sarah started tearing.




Sarah: I love you so much, Chris.

Chris: And I also want you to be happy.. I want you to marry someone, have kids, make a family, just live a happy life for me.

Sarah: No. I will never marry anyone.. im marrying you Chris

Chris: Just don't forget what I told you.



Chris leaned in and kissed her.
She pushed him off and jumped up



Sarah: You still think you can catch me?

Chris: Oh yeah. I'm stronger than I look.

Sarah: Then come get me.



Chris stood up and chased her around the football field until he finally caught her.
He laid on top of her and put her hands behind her back and held her there so she couldn't move.
Then it started to rain and they were getting soaked but they didn't care.



Chris looked deep into her eyes.

Chris: Who's the weak one now huh?

Sarah: Me (she giggled)

Chris: Remember what you told me that night when we were at dinner?

Sarah: No.. what?

Chris: You have always wanted to kiss in the rain with the one you love.

Sarah: Yeah?

Chris: Well your wish is my comand.



Chris leaned down and kissed her deeply.
He pulled away.


Chris: You're so beautiful.

Sarah: You're such a good kisser. (she laughed.. so did he)

Chris: I better get you home.




They got into the car and went home.
It was hard for them to sleep that night but they did.
It was finally the big day and they were all at the football field.
Chris had on all his football gear, and Sarah was ready to cheer him on.
The game began.
The crowd was going wild for Chris while Sarah was cheering her heart out for him.
The score was 36 to 36.
All they had to do was make one more point and they would win.
Chris had the ball and ran with all he had to the touchdown line and threw the ball down.
He had made a touch down!
Everyone was cheering.
They had won the game!
But for Chris.. he may have lost his life.
He fell to the ground trying to catch his breath.
Sarah ran to him and kneeled down over him.
He looked up at her gasping for breath.
Everyone was heading to field.
Her dad stood infront of them.



Dad: Back away.. give them a moment please.. that's my daughter's love.

Chris gently raised his hand and whiped her tears away.

Sarah: Don't die Chris.. I need you.. I love you..

Chris: I told you this was my dream to win the championship.. to be in the big game.. to die on this field.. I made history.




Sarah leaned down and kissed him, knowing this was the last she would ever kiss him, the last time she would ever talk to him.
She had so much to say but had no time to say it.




Chris: I love you baby. Tell Mom I love her too.. and tell coach thank you.

Sarah: I love you Chris. I love you so much.

Chris: I'll wait for you.....



Chris's hand dropped and he let go.
He died that night on the football feild.
Sarah cried for 2 months straight.
Sarah was lying on her bed when her dad walked in.



Dad: Honey, it's been 2 months. Please get up. He would want you to have fun and be happy.

Sarah: I know..

Dad: Guess what.

Sarah: What?

Dad: They are building a new stadium. Isn't that great honey? Come on, I want you to come with me before they tear the old one down.


Sarah got up and went with her dad to the field.
They climbed to the top of the bleachers and looked down.




Sarah: It's like it was just yesterday. He was out there throwing the football, making that touchdown.



Her dad wrapped his arms around her and she began to cry.



Dad: I know baby.. I know.

Then Sarah noticed something on the feild.

Sarah: Whats that daddy? Look. (Sarah pointed to the field)

Dad: Look like some flowers are blooming.

Sarah: Oh my gosh, daddy! Stop them! Don't let them tear this down! Please! Chris planted me something!!!




Her dad ran down there and stopped them.
Weeks later the flowers had bloomed.
Her and her dad went to look at them.
They were lillies that left a message saying, "I Love You".

definition of love

Love is being happy for the other person
when they are happy
being sad for the person
when they are sad
being together in good times
and being together in bad times
Love is the source of strength




..> ..>

Love is
being honest with yourself at all times
being honest with the other person at all times
telling, listening, respecting the truth
and never pretending
Love is the source of reality



..> ..>

Love is
an understanding so complete that
you feel as if you are a part
of the other person
accepting the other person
just the way they are
and not trying to change them
to be something else
Love is the source of unity



..> ..>

Love is
the freedom to pursue your own desires
while sharing your experiences
with the other person
the growth of one individual alongside of
and together with the growth
of another individual
Love is the source of success



..> ..> Love is
the excitement of planning things together
the excitement of doing things together
Love is the source of the future

..> ..> Love is
the fury of the storm
the calm in the rainbow
Love is the source of passion

..> ..> Love is
giving and taking in a daily situation
being patient with each other's
needs and desires
Love is the source of sharing

..> ..> Love is
knowing that the other person
will always be with you
regardless of what happens
missing the other person when they are away
but remaining near in heart at all times
Love is the source of security

..> ..> Love is
the
source
of
life
..> - Poem by Susan Polis Schutz

love by shakespeare

Shakespeare's sonnet 18


shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
thou art more lovely and more temperate:
rough winds do shake the darling buds of may,
and summer's lease hath all too short a date:
sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
and often is his gold complexion dimmed
and every fair from fair sometimes declines,
by chance, or natures changing course untrimmed:
but thy eternal summer shall not fade
norelose possession of that fair though ow'st,
nor shall death brag though wander'st in his shade
when in eternal lines to time though grow'st
so long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
so long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

thanksss<3

Hola a todos!

This is just a note to let me say THANK YOU. Just plain, ordinary THANK YOU. Why am saying THANK YOU so randomly and out of the blue? Well I'll tell you.

It seems to me that we don't say THANK YOU enough. Especially to those we care about and would probably die if we didn't have them with us.

I mean sure, we say THANK YOU to those people when we borrow a pen or get a nice compliment, or receive a nice gift for Chirstmas or Birthdays or any other time. We've been taught that since even before pre-school, its no big. But how many times do we say THANK YOU to the pen-lenders, the gift-givers, or the nice compliment-givers in lets say, the space of a week, for just simply being those people? For simply just being friends? For simply just being there to make fun of you when you have a random blonde moment? For bringing you back down to Earth when you let something trivial get you wound up into space? For calming you down when you're stressed up the wazzoo? For holding you when you cry? For listening when you talk? For not letting you down when you fail to show up somewhere or do somthing you promised you would? For forgiving you when you act like a jerk? For just loving you enough to say "screw it" to all your faults and flaws and hang out with you anyway? You've gotta admit it, it's pretty amazing of them, those people. So amazing you often wonder-- "Am I to them what they are to me? Am I helping them when they need me, or am I just taking and not giving back?" Hmmmm.....that's somthing to think on.

So I think we better start saying more THANK YOUs. So I'm going to try (anyway) to start a new trend. So THANK YOU gift-givers. THANK YOU pen-lenders. THANK YOU nice compliment-givers. THANK YOU friends. You are the greatest. THANK YOU. THANK YOU. THANK YOU.

who am i??

As of right now, i'm pretty sure i don't know. I'm a whole mix of a whole buncha people. Ever feel like that? Idk what i'm talking about honestly. This all made so much sense in my head a second ago and now that i put it down into a blog it doesn't seem to be spilling out right. That's what it feels like, spilling. Unorderly and incoherent, but i'll do my best.

I honestly have no clue with who i am, as a person. image wise mostly i guess. How we are percievrd as opposed to how we want to be percieved. I think most kids in adolescence go through this to some extent, the lucky few make it out of the mess early and know who they are and are confident about it. I want so badly NOT to fall into some category. I like lots of chunky bracelets and stuff, hats, metal studded belts and shredded Chucks, i mean that's just me. What would you call that exactly? When i look at myself i'd say a little punk influenced, but is it really? I mean you guys see me everyday. I'm kind of trying to express myself through that medium. Isn't that retarded? I'm trying to fit into a group. LOL me. Well, not exactly. I just like the clothes. But i like alot of different stuff. Sometimes i'm totally girl-esq and sometimes i feel like the complete opposite. I want to be the way i want to be and wear what i'd like to wear and say F you to whoever doesn't like it. But i'm not that way. To me, that's a hostile attitude. I don't like hostile attitudes.

It goes beyond that actually. I really feel very afraid when i'm singing or performing or whatever. I know i can do it, there's alot i wanna get out. I can let go and be amazing (i hope. i like to think i have it in me) but i'm really really scared people will go.., 'what is she doing? omg what an idiot she looks retarded." Not that i'm planning on thrashing around or acting crazy or goofy. But bouncy, full of life and just me. I don't like the feeling of being sqelched(sp?) or held back or put down or having one's thumb over my head. STOP IT! I will not stand for it. I'll fight right back. (See? that sounds hostile when you read it but it doesn't feel like that to me. It just feels sorta desperate.)

Mostly i feel like I'm letting down my boyfriend. When he met me, none of this had come out yet. I was still just going with happy old me and flowing around trying to be happy kind of delaying the heafty unloading and organization of Sara. I don't think i dressed like i do, or acted the way i do now. Did i? well somewhat of the latter. (i'm sorry this is so long. It just feels good to vent. But what if he;s thinking "what is this?" "who is she?" "this isn't the girl i fell in love with." Or maybe he's not. Maybe he's looking at the little chages and not liking them or resenting them or whatever. Are they even noticable? They are a little to me. Or a lot to me. But things are always magnified to one's self aren't they? Anyway Shawn, i'll put this to you-- am i the same person?

things that i've noticed

now that im 19 going on 20 ive learned a lot of very valuable lessons:

1) never blow dry your hair in the bathtub

2) when you slap a drawer on your fingers, removing your fingers would prove to be quite helpful

3) those little signs on the doors say "push" and "pull" for a reason. they're not there because the city didnt know what else to put on there

4) never tickle someone while they're drinking grape juice and you have a white shirt on...very bad combination

5) jello will turn back into a liquid if you put it in the microwave


And then of course there are some things that i still have no clue how they work

1) who closes the door when the bus driver leaves?

2) how long do they know to make the cord for the first bungee jump at a new place?


Ok so maybe there are only two of them. oh well. enjoy my wonderful words of wisdom.

how to eat an orange

i stole this from alex's blog. its so funny


Pre Rule : Before you eat an orange, you must ask the SU Orange men Mascot if you can eat an orange. If he says “no” then you cannot eat one. If he says “Yes” then start by following these rules.

Rule 1: You can only eat a orange that has a circumference of 10 in/ 26.5 cm. If you find one that is this size then you can eat it and continue to follow these rules. If you don’t you will have to serve the consequences. You might end up in the jail for mistreating oranges.

Rule 2: Before you eat an orange you must ask if it would like to be eaten.

Rule 3: If the orange says “Eat Me” you may take it and eat it. If it says “ Don’t eat me” leave it alone.

Rule 4: After asking the orange if it wants to be eaten, you must ask how it wants to be sliced; with a knife or with your hands.

Rule 5: If it says a “knife”, You must ask the orange what knife it wants to be cut with.

Rule 6: You must then ask the knife if it would like to be used to cut the orange.

Rule 7: If the knife says “Yes” you may use it. If it says “no”, you must tell the orange your predicament and ask it for another knife that would be willing to cut it.

Rule 8: After using the knife, you must say “Thank You”

Rule 9: If the orange says to “use your hands”, use your hands. And then say “Thank you” to your hands for pealing the orange.

Rule 10: To wash the knife or your hands, you must ask the water faucet if you can use it. If it says “ Yes” Then wash your hands. If it says “ No”then your have to ask other sinks if you can use them. If all of the sinks in your house won’t let you use them, then you must ask sinks in other parts of the world. If you cannot find any sinks that will let you wash your hands, then you must ask the hoses. Hoses can be tricky because they have there favorites. If all of the hoses in your yard say “ no you cannot use me “ then you must ask all the other hoses in the world. Then if your hands are still not washed then you must ask all the bodies of water in the world. if they say “no” as well then you will have to lick your fingers. Your tongue won’t mind as long as you say “Thank you” to it. But by then all of the sinks will let you wash your hands. So it seems as if you just wasted your time.

Rule 11 : If others are around when you have a orange, you must share with them all of the orange so you have none, or you must give all of the orange away so you only have left 1 mm left which is for you.

Rule 12: If you are older than 6, you cannot eat Clementines. Florida Oranges are for only 9-13 years old. Navel Oranges are for the teens and up to 20 years old. All of the other oranges are for everyone older than 20. But Alex Haehn is an exception she can eat any orange that she wishes as long as some rules are followed. She is also excepted because she is a friend to the Orange Men.

Rule 13: You cannot eat anymore than 3 oranges a day due to a gigantic growth in the belly size. To figure out your belly size,( if you want to grow a big belly) read this chart. It tells you how many oranges will give you a certain size in one day. ( The chart is written on the next page due to some circumstance about the looks.)

100 oranges = 100 ft
95 oranges = 95 ft
90 oranges = 90 ft
85 oranges =85 ft
80 oranges =80 ft
75 oranges =75 ft
70 oranges =70 ft
65 oranges =65 ft
60 oranges =60 ft
55 oranges =55 ft
50 oranges =50 ft
45 oranges =45 ft
40 oranges =40 ft
35 oranges =35 ft
30 oranges =30 ft
25 oranges =25 ft
20 oranges =20 ft
15 oranges =15 ft
10 oranges =10 ft
5 oranges =5 ft
4 oranges =4 ft
3 oranges =3 ft
2 oranges =2 ft
1 oranges =1 ft

Rule 14: You can only eat oranges on Tuesdays.

Rule 15: Your can only eat Oranges between the times of 2:00- 4:30. This will allow you to eat other fruits during the day with out the fruit punching each other. Otherwise you would have fruit punch.

Rule 16: You can only eat oranges with orange juice, cheese, and crackers.

Rule 17: Don’t eat a soft orange. It could be rotten.

Rule 18: Don’t eat a green orange or you will turn into a lime. It will happen also if you eat a yellow orange. If you don’t turn into that fruit, then you might turn into that color.

Rule 19: Never ever throw a orange on the ground. It will become bruised. The orange might become so mad that it will roll on you and bruise you. Or the Oranges will call 911-672-643 for being mistreated and you will get in very big trouble for being mean to the orange.

Rule 20: Oranges have personalities.Don’t forget to ask it some of these questions:

a. Where do you want to be pealed?
b. Do you want to be pealed with other oranges?
c. Are you too cold or are you too hot?
d.Would you like to become my friend?
e. Which spot is better for you? In the sun or in the refrigerator?

Questions like these might lead to a new future for you in the orange land.

Rule 21: Do not hit an orange on the floor. Because they might turn on you and roll over your foot, hand ect..........

Rule 22: Do not hit a orange because it could bite you, and you might end up in the hospital. Oranges have a strong and a deadly bite.

Rule 23: Do not eat an orange that wears a crown because you will eat a royal orange. It would be a royal pain to eat a royal orange. Not to mention a pain in the mouth. The mutant orange men will attack you and you could go to the orange jail. They will put you in jail for misuse, mistreated, unlawful eating of the king. You would have to stay in this jail for 48 hours. ( hours symbolize years in orange. 1 hour= 1 year. 2 hours= 2 years. 3,4,5 and so on.)

Rule 24: Oranges have a mean fruit punch when they get mad so stay out of the way when an grouchy orange comes by.

Rule 25: Oranges with a navel tend to be ticklish. They may become your friend or become your enemy. So be careful of the Navel Oranges, or in Orange land they may break out into a civil war. That war could even happen here on Earth.

Rule 26: Don’t underestimate an orange. For even if you don’t know it oranges are quite smart. They have an overactive imagination and that could lead to a drastic orange revolt against human kind if you disobey these laws.

Rule 27: You must say to the Orange “Are you ready to be eaten?” if it says “Yes”, it will smile at you. If it doesn’t smile at you, you must wait twenty minutes and then try again.

Rule 28: Oranges don’t like to be separated from their skin often. So make sure that before you eat the orange you ask the orange if it would like to say goodbye to its shell. Then you may eat the orange.

Rule 29: Oranges loath to be alone. So when you put them in the refrigerator, put them with other fruits. For example: Apples, Pears, and Bananas. They don’t like pineapple very much or other weird fruits like that. If you put the oranges with the fruit they don’t like you may have a fight in the fridge friuts against fruits.
Rule 30: Never put the oranges with vegetables they might eat each other to death. Or the oranges might suck out the vegetables juices out so they turn white. (This happened in a story I read called Bunnicula)

Rule 31: Beware of Captain Orange who goes around stealing our oranges so he himself can eat his fellow oranges. (He’s a bad orange. Destroying his own kind.) If you happen to find him in your fridge, just take a knife and cut him up for a snack. You might get in trouble with the King Orange, but at least he can’t steal oranges anymore.

Rule 32: If you become an orange farmer you must not grow oranges in the tropical rain forest because they will shrivel up and you would get in trouble with the Orange King for being imorange to them.

Rule 33: Please

Rule 34: Be

Rule 35: Kind

Rule 36: To

Rule 37: Oranges

Rule 38: Do not eat oranges with other fruits because they get jealous.

Rule 39: You must sing to the orange before you eat it. This will calm him down and he will want to be eaten more.

Rule 40: Do not eat orange flavored candy because they will think you like candy more than healthy fruits.

Rule 41: If you have a pet monkey don’t give him/her a orange because it will give them a really bad temper. We don’t know why, but a bad monkey is always trouble.

Rule 42: The only animal that likes to oranges is the Triple Rhino of Golapaous Isle. They eat so many oranges that the species has stayed the color Orange. They are a major attraction in the new zoo down there. You can purchase them in the zoo. But most people find there size way to minuscule. They get lost very easily. Well enough of this science lesson. Lets get back to the rules.

Rule 43: Do not use an orange when playing the game of bowling.

Rule 44: Do not eat an oranges while listen to loud music for it will get mad and scream in your ear. This loud noise hurts their delicate ears that are so tiny that there microscopic.

Rule 45: The only music oranges will listen to is Oceania. This is because this music is easy for an orange to dance to.

Rule 46: Oranges only dance on weekdays at any time. They save the weekends for going on dates.

Rule 47: Oranges don’t like being with dates because they are allergic to them. (This date is the kind you eat.)

Rule 48: Never eat an orange when listening to Aqua. It may become a deadly thing.

Rule 49: Never mistake an orange for a ball, or you just might get yourself on the ground with orange juice on you.

Rule 50: Oranges do not like it when mortals disobey these rules. They have a real problem with the fact that they have to have rules for people to live by. They find them quite ignoring. The rules are there because their last Orange King was terrified of humans, and wanted to put these rules into action. But the orange just might still have a revolt against the old dead kings son. That would be bad for him. There would be trouble in the orange realm. That is where you need to help the oranges. Making friends with them will help you enter their realm, and just then maybe you could help them bring down these rules until then, these rules stay. Maybe you can help. Here I’ll bring the portal in. Just imagine a land where everything smells like fruit and oranges talk. There are good ones and some bad ones that help the king. So you my brave wanderer must save this land before it is too late.

totally random

so ok so ever get that feeling that you're standing in quicksand?? it feels really weird. i would rather eat a worm than stand in that sutff

really cute intro to movie

movie

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application

alex sent this to me 3 years? ago and i lmao!!

APPLICATION FOR PERMISSION
TO DATE MY DAUGHTER


NOTE: THIS APPLICATION WILL BE INCOMPLETE AND REJECTED UNLESS ACCOMPANIED BY A COMPLETE FINANCIAL STATEMENT, WORK HISTORY, LINEAGE, AND CURRENT MEDICAL REPORT FROM YOUR DOCTOR.


1. NAME_________________________________


DATE OF BIRTH___/___/___




2.HEIGHT__________________WEIGHT___________IQ______GPA_______


3. SOCIAL SECURITY#______________DRIVERS LIC#_______________


4. BOY SCOUT RANK___________________________


5. HOME ADDRESS______________CITY/STATE_______________ZIP_______


6. DO YOU HAVE ONE MALE AND ONE FEMALE PARENT?_______________
IF NO, PLEASE EXPLAIN___________________________________


7. NUMBER OF YEARS PARENTS MARRIED?____________________


8. DO YOU OWN A VAN?________________MOTORCYCLE?______________
TRUCK WITH OVERSIZED TIRES?___________WATERBED?____________
DO YOU HAVE AN EARRING?____NOSE RING?____BELLY BUTTON RING__


9. IN 50 WORDS OR LESS, WHAT DOES DON'T TOUCH MY DAUGHTER MEANS TO YOU?__________________________________________________


10. IN 50 WORDS OR LESS, WHAT DOES LATE MEAN TO YOU?________________________________________________________


11. IN 50 WORDS OR LESS, WHAT DOES ABSTINENCE MEAN TO YOU?__________________________________________


12. CHURCH YOU ATTEND?________________________


13. WHEN WOULD BE THE BEST TIME TO INTERVIEW YOUR FATHER?_________MOTHER?___________PRIEST?__________


14. ANSWER BY FILLING IN THE BLANK. PLEASE ANSWER FREELY, ALL ANSWERS ARE CONFIDENTIAL (THAT MEANS I WON'T TELL ANYONE)
A. IF I WERE SHOT, THE LAST PLACE ON MY BODY I WOULD WANT WOUNDED IS THE ________________
B. IF I WERE BEATEN, THE LAST PLACE I WOULD WANT BROKEN IS MY _____________
C. A WOMAN'S PLACE IS IN THE ______________
D.. THE ONE THING I HOPE THIS APPLICATION DOESN'T ASK IS _________
E. WHEN I FIRST MEET A GIRL, THE THING I NOTICE FIRST IS HER ________
(NOTE: IF THE ANSWERS STARTS WITH A T OR AN A, DISCONTINUE APPLICATION AND LEAVE PREMISES, KEEPING LOW AND RUNNING IN A SERPENTINE FASHION IS ADVISED.)


15. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE IF YOU GROW UP?________________


I SWEAR THAT ALL OF THE INFORMATION SUPPLIED ABOVE IS TRUE AND CORRECT TO THE BEST OF MY KNOWLEDGE UNDER PENALTY OF DEATH, DISMEMBERMENT, NATIVE AMERICA AN TORTURE, CRUCIFIXION,ELECTROCUTION, CHINESE WATER TORTURE, RED HOT POKERS, AND HILLARY CLINTON KISS TORTURE.


_________________________________
SIGNATURE (THAT MEANS YOU SIGN YOUR NAME)

songs to entertain me

witch doctor


funkytown


bad day


how we roll

so sad

i had some technical difficulties with my blog so all of the fun stuff is gone!! im so pissed!!!! leave me some love and help me feel better please!!